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His indifferent voice immediately caused an uproar. Not only did the fans below go crazy, but also those reporters, as if they found breaking news. They were frantically taking pictures and doing close-ups. 

Su Shen pursed her lips and tried to keep a smile on her face.

The hostess obviously hadn’t expected him to answer with this. After being taken aback for a while, she continued to ask regardless of the screams below, “Then, are you still together with this girlfriend?”

This question was enough to blow up today’s hot search list. The fans below were shouting “no” painfully as if they had been hit by something.

Su Shen felt that if Xie Yan were to say it outloud, she would be splashed with sulfuric acid tomorrow. 

Without hesitating for too long, Xie Yan smiled at the hostess, “She’s in my heart.”

“AHHHHH! NO!”

The audience below went crazy and the whole venue was in an uproar. A hint of unwillingness flashed through Fan Meng’s eyes.

At his smile, the young hostess blushed and immediately changed the topic, “Okay, let’s move onto the second question. This one should be answered by Fan Meng. It’s said that you and Su Shen do not get along online, what are your thoughts?”

Facing the microphone that was handed over, Fan Meng smiled and said toward the camera despite knowing that the topics today would not be about her, “We get along very well. Su Shen’s a great learner and often would ask me and Xie Yan about the script. She’s made great progress.”

On the surface, she was complementing Su Shen, but if someone were to listen closely, she was pointing at her for sticking to Xie Yan. After all, there were so many veteran actors among the crew that she could ask, but she went and asked Fan Meng and Xie Yan instead. It was obvious that Fan Meng was digging a hole for Su Shen.

It was unclear whether the hostess had understood what she meant. The hostess laughed and continued to ask, “Okay, the third question should be answered by Wang Cheng. Who do you think is the most beautiful actress among the crew?”

Xie Yan’s fans seemed to have been exhausted from screaming and did not scream. It was finally time for Wang Cheng’s fans to scream. They had even made a slogan “Cheng Cheng, you’re the best”. The camera was instantly aimed at Wang Cheng’s face.

The latter seemed to be used to this kind of scene and casually laughed. He then patted Su Shen’s shoulder, “Of course, it’s our little beauty.”

“AHHHH!” The fans below screamed once again.

In fact, Wang Cheng joking around like this enabled it unlikely for rumors to start. It only proved that their relationship was close enough. The hostess also laughed along, “Then, who’s the big beauty?”

The hostess was trying to give him a chance and hoped that he would say Fan Meng. After all, she was indifferent and wanted for no one to be left out. However, Wang Cheng just winked at the hostess, “Of course, the big beauty’s Yin jie!”  

Hearing this, the hostess laughed embarrassingly. No one would dislike others to say that she was pretty, even if it was just pleasantries.

Only Fan Meng kept a smile on her face, but her heart was full of contempt. As a best actress, she wouldn’t be so petty with a xiao xian rou!

“For the fourth question, this should be answered by Xie Yan. Why did you give your first onscreen kiss to Su Shen?” The hostess passed the microphone with fervent eyes.

The people below screamed once again, but it was apparent that their voices were much weaker. It was too shocking for them today that they still could not recover. 

Facing the microphone that was handed over, Xie Yan’s expression remained unchanged and replied earnestly, “It doesn’t matter who it is. This is the most basic thing for an actor. As the plot required it, it should be filmed.”

The Director kept a smile on his face.

Li Hao, who was standing beside him, also smiled without saying anything.

Only Fan Meng bit her lower lip slightly to make her expression appear more natural.

It was another strategized answer. The hostess nodded, then took a look at her script and continued, “For the fifth question, this should be answered by Su Shen. Who do you think is the most handsome, Wang Cheng or Xie Yan?” 

“AHHHH!” Wang Cheng’s fans were still there screaming, whereas Xie Yan’s fans had already stopped, since there was nothing that could shock them anymore.

Facing the microphone, Su Shen looked at Li Hao with a smile, “I think Li Hao ge is the most handsome.”

Xie Yan glanced at Li Hao, who was beside him, and didn’t say anything.

Li Hao: “……”

His heart’s palpitating!

“Ahaha!” The hostess laughed and continued to ask other questions.

The rest of the questions were all rather ordinary. Su Shen was not a lead actor, so she was soon invited down the stage, leaving only the Director, Xie Yan, and Fan Meng on the stage to interview.

Facing her phone that was handed over by Xiao Zhou, she could already imagine the storm online. When she opened her phone, almost everyone online was sharing the clip that had just been edited out from the broadcast.

In less than five minutes, the clip had been shared over five million times with comments wailing below. The live broadcast continued, but the comments on the bullet screen had gone crazy.

Netizen A: Anyone wanna meet on the rooftop tonight? [smiley face]

Netizen B: Hubby must be just joking around. Maybe he just couldn’t forget his ex-girlfriend, I can understand. [smiley face]

Netizen C: NO!!! I DON’T ACCEPT!!!

Netizen D: Henceforth, I won’t ask you to post selfies anymore. You don’t have to take part in any activities either, just focus on filming. My heart can’t bear it. [sob]

Netizen E: Anyone wanna go to the rooftop in Qiliu district of Jiang City?

Netizen F: Yesterday, you were still my hubby, and today, you became someone else’s boyfriend. Have you forgotten your wives by the Daming Lake in Jinan? 

Netizen G: I beg of Xie Yan to not accept any more interviews in the future. Even if you get married, don’t tell us! I have high blood pressure!!!

Looking at the bullet screen full of comments, Su Shen just felt somewhat guilty. If Xie Yan really had said it outloud just now, she would be sent blades everyday. 

“Omg, why didn’t I know that Xie Yan had a girlfriend? I never saw his girlfriend visiting the set when we were filming before!” Wang Cheng also seemed to be very curious and kept staring at the person on stage.

Su Shen closed her phone and pursed her lips without saying anything.

The breaking news of the press conference had exceeded the expectations of the media. Even after the press conference ended, the media blocked the entrance and refused to leave, insisting on interviewing Xie Yan.

Fortunately, He Hua found a few bodyguards, and they cleared the way for Xie Yan to get into the car.

Su Shen followed Liu jie and also left. After getting in the car, she looked at the scenery that was flashing past. It seemed that everything was showing the prosperity of the city.

While driving, Liu jie, at the front, suddenly asked, “You guys are together?”

Su Shen came to her senses and turned to look at the person in front, “What do you think?”

“It doesn’t matter if you don’t tell me, but do you think you can hide it from me?” Liu jie said calmly, as if not surprised at all.

Xiao Zhou, who was in the car, played with her phone and didn’t dare to make a sound. It was obvious that the scene in the dressing room before had shocked her greatly.

Closing her eyes, Su Shen leaned against the seat and said nothing. She took the coat on her legs and covered her body with it.

Seeing her silent, Liu jie also didn’t ask further, but just chuckled, “You’d be a fool if you don’t use your connections. Recently, I’ve been helping you get in contact with a film by Director Li. It’s a literary film set in the Republic of China times. He only directs a film every two years, and the female lead can basically win an award. There are many people fighting for the role, even Fan Meng. Originally, I was helping you get the third supporting female role, but He Hua’s close to Director Li. As long as he is willing to recommend you, you can also fight for the female lead role.”

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Meet on the Rooftop

Her neck felt a little uncomfortable because of his hair, but Su Shen didn’t push him away. A trace of apology appeared on her fair face, “I’m sorry.”

She had never dated before, but she also knew that both parties should be equal in this kind of matter. However, she seemed to have been asking too much of Xie Yan while enjoying his kindness toward her.

“It’s okay.” Xie Yan took another deep breath between her neck and rubbed against it as if he was addicted to it, “I hope you voice your opinions more.”

And not be so courteous.

If Su Shen was in a hurry to make it public or be so open, it wouldn’t be herself. 

The position they were in was full of ambiguity, and the atmosphere was also very weird. Su Shen blushed and couldn’t help but stroke his hair tremblingly. 

“If there’s anything I’m doing wrong, you can tell me,” she whispered. 

Holding her soft hand, Xie Yan laughed. He thought of something and said earnestly, “I don’t want to eat takeaway lunch anymore.”

Su Shen: “……”

“It’s cause you are too picky.” She said solemnly. 

Xie Yan’s eyes darkened as he swept a glance at her bright red lips. He suddenly leaned in and said, “Then, you can supervise me everyday henceforth.”

“Mhm…” Su Shen widened her eyes and felt the hold on her waist becoming tighter, which caused her to close her eyes tightly all tensed. 

It was said that eating too much lipstick was not good for one’s health.

She smelled so nice that one could fall asleep with a breath of her. Xie Yan felt like he was getting addicted to it and couldn’t help but pry open her mouth to want even more…

“Su jie, the press conference is going to…”

Xiao Zhou held the doorknob as she looked at the shocking scene inside, stupefied. 

What did she see! 

What did she see!!!

This must be a dream!!!

“The press conference is going to start?” Xie Yan calmly stood up and straightened his clothes, appearing right and proper again. 

Xiao Zhou noticed that her idol had changed his hairstyle today!

But! What did she just see!

“Yes…” His attractiveness made Xiao Zhou nod subconsciously. 

Taking a look at Su Shen, who was looking down and didn’t dare to look at anyone, Xie Yan smiled, “I’ll go first.”

Su Shen didn’t say anything until she heard the sound of the door closing again. At last, she could only take a deep breath and looked up, pretending to be calm. She looked at Xiao Zhou, who was still in a daze, and said, “Don’t tell Liu jie about this first.”

The latter nodded in a daze.

But the scene of her idol pushing her Su jie down on the sofa and kissing her just now was still so shocking to her.  

Just at this moment, the press conference was already full of reporters, and Wang Cheng and the others were already in their seats. According to the order of their seats, Su Shen sat behind Wang Cheng.

“I heard that you are in contact with the reality show from Hunan TV?” Wang Cheng leaned back and whispered.

He was wearing a blue suit today, making him even more handsome. In the audience, there was a large group of fans holding his banners.

“Yeah, what’s the matter?” Su Shen glanced at the stage, and it was almost time for the host to come on stage.

“They also asked me. I’ll go if you go.” Wang Cheng smiled and arched a brow at her.

Su Shen smiled helplessly and shook her head slightly, “What’s the use of following me? I don’t have time to cook and give you a free meal.”

“Another TV station also asked me, the remuneration was about the same. Since you’re going to this one, I naturally have to go. Else, I’ll need to compete for views with you by that time?” Wang Cheng glanced at Xie Yan and couldn’t help but leaned in and whispered, “Why do you think Xie Yan would suddenly go and film an idol drama? Isn’t he stealing our livelihood?”

Su Shen: “……”

“Don’t worry, he will probably only shoot this one and won’t be stealing your livelihood.”

Seeing the two of them whispering with each other, a trace of gloom flashed in Xie Yan’s eyes. In his memory, he had never seen Su Shen chat with him so happily.

Li Hao, who was beside him, seemed to have noticed something and suddenly looked him up and down, “Why do I find you so strange lately? It’s rare to see you at these press conferences before, but now, you’re almost always present. Moreover, you even went to film an idol drama. If you’re short of money, just tell me. There’s no need to accept all kinds of drama like this.”

Xie Yan glanced at him from the corner of his eye and said indifferently, “I’m short of a wife.”

Just at this moment, the host finished warming up the stage and invited several of the lead actors up. Li Hao could only swallow his astonishment and went up to the stage.

The audience immediately burst into screams. It was not until they went on stage that the hostess handed over a microphone and asked them to introduce themselves in turn.

After the introductions were over, the hostess took a meaningful look at everyone and said, “Everyone knows that there’s a lot of eyes on this movie, and there are also many questions about it online. So today, we have sorted out a few questions that everyone online wants to ask and see how you all will answer them.”

“AHHHHHH!” 

The fans in the audience screamed. 

After taking a look at her script, the hostess turned to the Director besider her, “For the first question, I think the Director should answer it. Can you tell us which one of the two romantic entanglements shown in the trailer is the male lead’s true love?”

“AHHHHH!” Xie Yan’s fans were screaming madly. 

The cameras kept flashing incessantly. There were at least a dozen reporters from different media companies present. Facing so many cameras, the Director laughed and said unhurriedly, “Just like an ex-girlfriend and current girlfriend, who knows which one’s the true love?” 

The fans in the audience were still screaming. At that, the hostess nodded and handed the microphone to Xie Yan, who was much taller than her, “Then Xie Yan, can you tell us, do you like your ex-girlfriend or current girlfriend more?”

Xie Yan: “I only have one girlfriend.”

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When she returned to her dressing room, Xiao Zhou was in the midst of eating chips. Seeing her back, she immediately got up and handed her phone to her, “Liu jie called just now.”

Hearing this, Su Shen took her phone and sat in front of the vanity. There was a message from Liu jie, which said that the movie would hold a press conference in eight days and that she would come pick her up at that time.

Thinking that she might have had a lot of scenes edited out, Su Shen’s mood was nowhere better. She had put a lot of effort into that movie, but it turned out that so many of her scenes would be deleted.

After changing her clothes and putting on makeup, it was almost time to start filming the afternoon scenes. When Su Shen went out, she saw Xie Yan and the Director talking over there and walked over with her script. 

Seeing her coming, the Director said with a smile, “If we use positioning, then we would have to draw out the longshot and cut from the right side. You guys would have to adjust the angles.”

Hearing this, Su Shen nodded earnestly. She didn’t like to film this kind of scene in front of so many people. It was better if positioning was used if possible. 

“Xie laoshi, can you lower your head a little bit down later? My shoes are not so high this time.” She looked at Xie Yan with dead earnesty.

Xie Yan: “……”

Xie laoshi?

Zhao Tong, on the side, swept a peculiar glance at the two of them. He didn’t seem to understand why they were so suddenly courteous?

“Okay.” Xie Yan said politely.

Noticing how estranged the two of them were, the Director was baffled. Their relationship was clearly pretty good before, how did it become like this now?

When they were filming, everyone was puzzled when they found out they were using positioning. It was obvious that their Film Emperor treated Su Shen pretty well before, why was it that they were using positioning now? 

Filming went pretty smooth in the afternoon. Ignoring the strange gazes of the rest of the crew, Su Shen changed her clothes and prepared to go back to the hotel.

Liu jie had arranged a chauffeur and a car for her, and they would arrive at the hotel in about five or six minutes. It was great that there were no night scenes today. For the following few days, there might be night scenes, and she wouldn’t be able to be back so early.

When she was waiting for the elevator, she met Luo Han. Su Shen greeted him with a smile.

“You’ve changed a lot.” Luo Han looked at her and smiled.

Knowing that he was referring to her character, Su Shen just smiled when she heard that, “People always change. I was not sensible before, but now I’m sensible.”

Hearing this, Luo Han just laughed and didn’t say anything. When the elevator arrived, the two of them walked in together.

When she returned to her room, Su Shen received a message from Xie Yan saying that he wanted to go out for dinner, but she didn’t agree. There were so many paparazzi outside; she didn’t want to spend another million to buy photos.

For the next few days, Su Shen didn’t get too close to Xie Yan. After all, Zhao Tong was there. When Liu jie came to pick her up for the press conference, she even brought along a dress for her.

Although a lead actor asked for leave, some supporting roles could be shot first. When they sat in the car, Su Shen felt her shoulder cold when she saw the white one-shoulder knee length dress on top of her. 

“Why do you always choose a one-shoulder dress for me?” She looked at Liu jie, who was at the front, confusedly.

The latter said without turning around, “You have good-looking shoulders. You must show your strong points, unless you want to show your shortcomings?”

Hearing this, Su Shen pursed her lips and said nothing.

“I accepted the company’s crime drama for you, but it will start filming in December. The location’s in Zhejiang. To avoid overlap in filming, I discussed it with your Director and decided to film all your scenes in one go, to try to finish filming your scenes of this drama before December.” Liu jie said sitting in the front.

Hearing this, Su Shen didn’t object, but she couldn’t go back to accompany her parents over Chinese New Year again.

“My… a lot of my scenes really got cut from the movie?” She couldn’t help but ask.

At that, Liu jie kept silent for a while before saying solemnly, “I’m not sure since I haven’t seen the finished movie, but from what I’ve heard, they edited out a lot of your scenes.” 

Su Shen didn’t say anything. She closed her eyes and leaned against the seat. The entertainment industry was that the strong prey upon the weak. 

When the car stopped in front of the entrance of the press conference, there were already many media’s cars parked outside. Xie Yan’s car seemed to be right behind, but Su Shen went into the hotel first without waiting for him.

The temporary lounges were for two people per room. Su Shen saw Fan Meng again. This time, she was wearing a deep v evening gown. She had a large chest, and there was basically no gap in the middle. It seemed that she wanted to be the subject of the talk with this. 

For two actresses to be in the same frame, they would inevitably be compared to one another. No one wanted to be robbed of their limelight. Fan Meng’s move was already the norm in the entertainment industry.

“You’re a different story now since being with Xie Yan. You even know how to drag him to help you. I even thought your next production would be the female lead of a big screen!” Leaning against the sofa, Fan Meng played with her phone. Her words were so enigmatic that her assistant pretended not to hear them.

Su Shen went over and sat down, ignoring her. On the contrary, Xiao Zhou looked a little unhappy, as if she was indignant for her.

Seeing that she kept silent, Fan Meng felt vapid. When her assistant said that it was time and the reporters outside were already waiting for her, Fan Meng then walked out lifting the hem of her gown.

As soon as she left, Xiao Zhou roasted her resentfully, “Look at her chest, it must be filled with silicone!”

Hearing this, Su Shen just glanced at her, “Whether she filled it or not, it’s her business. Just treat her as if she didn’t exist if she says anything else in the future.” 

It was not good for Su Shen to tear her face down right now, and the battle of words would always be a meaningless act. 

“Oh.” Xiao Zhou pursed her lips as she heard that. She looked outside as if something came to mind, “I’ll go and see if the press conference is ready.”

Su Shen nodded slightly and asked her to check if Wang Cheng, Li Hao, and the others had arrived yet. Hearing this, Xiao Zhou then walked out of the lounge with her phone, while the former continued to scroll through the comments on her phone. 

The press conference was also broadcasted live. At this time, the comments below the live broadcast practically exploded because there would be another long trailer released today. These people were waiting for the kiss scene, but Su Shen did not know if that kiss scene had been cut or not.

When she heard the sound of the door opening, she looked up, only to find that it was Xie Yan.

“Why are you here?” She frowned slightly.

Today, Xie Yan changed into a formal suit, making his 190 cm build even taller. Moreover, he also had his hair done and was more attentive to his appearance than before. But when he saw Su Shen’s one-shoulder gown, he frowned slightly and stared straight at her exposed shoulder.

“Why are you wearing so little?” He walked over and sat beside her; he was clearly unhappy when he saw her exposed skin. 

Today, Su Shen just had light makeup on. In order to cover her shoulder, she had specially let down her hair, but it was inevitable that some of her skin would be exposed.

“This was picked by Liu jie.” Speaking of this, she suddenly thought of something and sat up straight, “Why are you here?” 

Seeing her be overly cautious again, Xie Yan frowned and couldn’t help but wrap his arm around her slender waist, burying his head into her fair and tender neck. He took a deep breath, “Why does it seem like I’m a thief?” 

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Su Shen’s expression changed and stood there in a daze, wondering if she had offended him?

“You… don’t like kissing scenes, right?” She suddenly became a little reserved.

Xie Yan looked up, “Yes, I don’t like filming kiss scenes.”

Su Shen breathed a sigh of relief.

“But, it depends on the person.”

All of a sudden, he stood up and was in front of Su Shen in two steps. The latter was so intimidated that she fell down onto the sofa.  

The latter leaned over and placed one hand on the sofa, “Others are others, you are you.”

When their eyes met, Su Shen was so scared that she leaned against the sofa all tensed, forgetting to even blink.

“Do you think I’m very easy-going?” He said in a low voice and fixed his eyes on her.

He was too close to her, and Su Shen didn’t like this position, so she pushed his shoulders, “Don’t be like this. If you don’t want to go say it, then I’ll go say it myself.”

Seeing that she was still pretending to not know anything, Xie Yan narrowed his eyes and suddenly sealed her pink lips with his; the latter’s eyes immediately widened.

At this time, she hadn’t applied any lipstick yet, but it was still sweet. As if it was an addiction, Xie Yan subconsciously held the back of her head with one hand and seemed to have lost control of himself. 

“Mhm… Xie… Xie Yan…” Su Shen was about to cry, and she kept pushing him.

Noticing the hand that had been beating his shoulder, Xie Yan suppressed himself and released her, but his dark eyes were still fixed on the person in front of him.

Su Shen looked terrified and her bright red lips slightly parted, as if she had been frightened by something.

She didn’t believe how Xie Yan could do this to her.

“Do you understand?” His voice was slightly hoarse.

Being stared at by him, she felt a little flustered. Although Su Shen had been avoiding his sight, her heartbeat was beating so fast that it was hard for her to ignore it.

“I… I… I’m still young…” She seemed to have wanted to say something.

“You’re saying I’m old?” He frowned and his eyes darkened when his glance swept past her bright red lips.

The two of them were so close that Su Shen couldn’t even move her head, but she really didn’t know how to deal with this kind of relationship between a man and a woman.

“I didn’t mean that. It’s just… just that I want to focus on my career first.”

Her soft voice had no confidence, and her pair of round eyes looked everywhere but not at him. Xie Yan felt it was funny. Did she think being with him would hinder her career?

“Your career and us being together has no conflict.” Speaking of this, he leaned in and whispered into her ear, “You didn’t outright reject me, does that mean… you don’t actually dislike me?”

His hot breath puffed onto her ear. Su Shen’s entire body froze, and her hands by her side clenched into fists. Her eyes looked everywhere, but she didn’t dare to look straight at him.

With regard to Xie Yan, Su Shen felt very perplexed. She didn’t know what kind of feeling it was, but she always subconsciously believed in him. Hence, she immediately thought that she should go find him when the kiss scene came up and that he would definitely not refuse her. However, she didn’t expect…

“I… I really don’t want to be in a relationship right now.” Su Shen looked down to hide the perplexity in her eyes.

“Are you worried that I will hinder your career?” Xie Yan held the back of her head and stroked her soft hair from time to time, “I promise you that if I implicate your career, you can dump me at any time.”

Su Shen looked up and seeing how earnest he was, with his eyes full of her reflection, she couldn’t help but frown for a moment, “There’s no such thing as trying or not trying in love.”

A woman did not serve two husbands. Although times have changed, Su Shen still did not want to switch from one boyfriend to another so casually.

After hesitating for a while, she frowned and said rather seriously, “Okay, but you have to promise me three conditions.”

As her words fell, the look in Xie Yan’s eyes changed. Let alone three conditions…

“Go ahead.” His gaze fervent. 

Blinking, she said seriously, “First, you are not allowed to reveal our relationship to anyone, not even Zhao Tong!”

Xie Yan: “……”

“I won’t tell anyone.” His expression remained unchanged.

Seeing this, Su Shen looked at him seriously and said, “You can’t be too close to me in public. Even if we’re acting, you have to be courteous.”

Xie Yan: “……”

“Okay!”

“Thirdly,” Su Shen frowned and her face blushed, “I… I refuse to do that… before marriage.” 

Nowadays, people were so open. Not to mention the entertainment industry, even among ordinary people, it was very common for that kind of thing to happen between boyfriend and girlfriend. But she didn’t want to be like that. Although she might be influenced by her previous life, she still didn’t want to entrust herself so easily to someone.

Hearing this, Xie Yan’s brow twiched. After a while, he just smiled, “I’m not that kind of person.”

Seeing that he had agreed, Su Shen pushed him on the shoulder again and said, “Then, let me go.”

Xie Yan looked down and his eyes darkened. He suddenly leaned in and whispered into her ear, “Should we go over the kiss scene later?”

Su Shen’s expression changed and an outline in front of her suddenly enlarged before she could even react.

“Mhm…” Su Shen blushed and wanted to push him away, but someone grasped her wrist. She closed her eyes and waited for him to finish it quickly.

Sensing that she relaxed, Xie Yan bit her lower lip even more unbridled. He then pried her lips open and finally stopped after getting a taste of her.

Afraid of scaring her, he finally loosened his grip on her. Su Shen was almost out of breath. Facing his sudden behavior, she couldn’t help but denounce him, “You… you can’t…”

“I can’t control myself sometimes.” He buried his head in the pit of her neck and took a deep breath, “But I will try my best to control myself with this kind of behavior.”

Su Shen: “……”

After being held by him for a while, Su Shen finally couldn’t help but push his shoulder, “I’m leaving.”

Xie Yan frowned and buried himself in the pit of her neck unhappily, “We’re going over the script, others won’t think too much of it.”

Su Shen: “……”

Do you really think everyone else were idiots?

“I really need to leave, I still haven’t gotten my makeup done.” She said earnestly.

Hearing this, the man on top of her finally moved, but there was gloom written all over his face.

“Remember to tell the Director to delete that kiss scene.”

With that, Su Shen took her script and left the dressing room, disregarding what the person behind her thought.

In fact, Su Shen felt the difference between being with Xie Yan and Jiang Yin. When they were filming before, Jiang Yin would hug her because of the plot, but Su Shen felt a little uncomfortable with this kind of close contact. However, she did not resist Xie Yan nearing her. She had never been in love, so she did not know what kind of feeling that was, but Xie Yan was really good to her.

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Hearing this, Su Shen’s expression changed slightly. That’s right, it’s just acting. Before, it was so natural for her and Jiang Yin to say you love me, I love you, and it’s the same now. They were just work partners.

After taking a deep breath, she made an OK sign, and the Director over there shouted, “Action!”

As the camera panned over, Su Shen was led by him discontentedly. From time to time in the surroundings, there were two aunties walking their dog. They were all extras. When the camera panned in front of her, she then turned to look at the man beside her, “Can’t you leave a few days later? Tomorrow’s my birthday!” 

Xie Yan held her soft hand as they walked until they reached downstairs. He patted her head with a smile, “Be good, I’ll make it up for you next time.”

“Birthdays are just one day. Once it’s passed, it’s passed. There’s no way to make it up!” Su Shen pouted slightly and turned away from him.

When the camera turned to pan at her right side, Xie Yan looked at his watch and said, “Go back first, I’m leaving.”

Seeing that he was so insensitive, Su Shen immediately stepped forward and hugged him. According to the script, she rubbed against his embrace and mumbled, “No, I’m not letting you go!”

She hugged him very gently, and the hair above her head brushed his chin. As he looked down, he could see complaints written all over her face, and she looked somewhat aggrieved. If it was Xie Yan, he would definitely not leave.

“Don’t fuss, this is a mission!” He held her shoulders. When he touched her smooth and tender skin, his expression changed slightly. 

Hearing this, Su Shen pouted again in grievance. Then, she stood on tiptoe and wrapped her arms around his neck. Blinking, she leaned in close, “Kiss me then!”

Her lips with a red-orange lip gloss pouted slightly. When she almost touched his chin, Xie Yan expended a lot of effort to turn away her head with his hand, “Don’t play around.”

Seeing this, Su Shen appeared to be angry and snorted. She snatched her bag and hurried upstairs.

“Cut!”

As the Director’s words fell, Su Shen then walked out of the building. With a calm face, she let the makeup artist fiddle with her hair.

It’s done for.

Zhao Tong knew that their Yan ge was done for when he saw Su Shen’s calm and indifferent expression.

Under such circumstances, no girl would be so calm. It seemed that Su Shen really had no feelings for their Yan get.

The next few scenes went pretty well. However, there was going to be a kiss scene in the afternoon. Su Shen felt that she should go and ask Xie Yan to have him ask the Director to use positioning for it. 

It was not until Su Shen was eating a takeaway lunch that her mom called. As soon as she received the call, she immediately ran outside.

She saw a black Bentley on the side of the road. There were two people standing in front of the car, one was her mom, who was carrying a paper bag in hand, and the other was Tan Haozhi in a black suit!  

Seeing her coming, Mama Su immediately waved, “Over here, over here!”

When Su Shen ran over panting, she couldn’t help but glance at Tan Haozhi, “Why are you…”

“Oh, I happened to meet your Hao Zhi gege when I was leaving. He insisted on driving me here. It seems I’ve troubled him once again!” As soon as Mama Su finished speaking, she saw the pair of super high heels that she was wearing, “Do you guys normally wear such high heels for filming? Aren’t you afraid of spraining your ankle?”

Su Shen: “……”

In the entertainment industry, there was only higher, no highest! 

“Perhaps the plot requires it.” Tan Haozhi, on the side, suddenly smiled. He glanced at the set inside and said to Mama Su, “Auntie, there are usually paparazzi outside the set. How about I drive over there and wait for a bit?”

After a moment’s hesitation upon hearing that, Mama Su gave the paper bag to her and said, “Remember to drink it while it’s still hot. I won’t go in, so as to not make your Hao Zhi gege wait too long. He still has matters to tend to!” 

Hearing that she was not going to go in, Su Shen was relieved. She was indeed not suitable to be in the same frame as a man, and it was said that there were several paparazzi waiting outside too.

“Thank you for the trouble. I’ll treat you to dinner next time.” She smiled at Tan Haozhi.

The latter nodded slightly and then opened the door for Mama Su while turning back toward her and said, “It won’t be too late to treat me to dinner when you’ve found a boyfriend.”

After hearing that, Su Shen blushed and glared at him, “You haven’t even found a girlfriend, but you’re forcing me to find a boyfriend; I’m much younger than you!”

“How can you talk like that!” Mama Su raised her hand and gently swatted her head.

Su Shen immediately took a few steps back and couldn’t help but mumble, “I’m not wrong.”

“This girl…” Mama Su wished she could swat her again. This brat was really so stupid!

Seeing this, Su Shen immediately walked back with the chicken soup in her arms. Since the original Su Shen’s crush still did not like her, there was no need for her to avoid him in the future. It’s actually pretty nice to have such a brother.

When she returned to set, everyone was eating lunch, but it was takeaway boxed lunch. However, Li Xue, who knew how to enjoy life, went out to eat.

Seeing her come back with a paper bag in her arms,  Xiao Zhou couldn’t help laughing mischievously, “Su jie, I just heard that you went to see a man. Why are you smiling so happily?”

Su Shen: “……”

She almost forgot that Uncle Liu by the entrance was a gossiper.

“He’s a neighbor, we’ve known each other for a long time.” As she spoke, she took out the box and said to Xiao Zhou, “Would you like to drink some? It’s good for replenishing your blood vitality.”

“Yes, yes, yes!” Xiao Zhou immediately went to get her bowl.

After eating lunch, Su Shen read the script again. Thinking of the kiss scene in the afternoon, she took her script and went to find Xie Yan. He would definitely not want to film it.

As soon as she reached the door of his dressing room, the door was opened from inside. She saw Zhao Tong walking out carrying two bags of fruit. When he saw her, he immediately opened a bag, “Do you want some fruit? A producer sent it.”

Su Shen didn’t say anything. She knew that this kind of treatment would not fall on her head. 

“No thanks, is Xie Yan inside?” She asked.

As her words fell, Zhao Tong immediately pointed inside, “Yes, yes, yes!”

Seeing this, Su Shen went in with her script in hand. As soon as she entered the door, she saw that Xie Yan was having a boxed lunch, which was full of vegetables and no meat or fish were in sight.

“Why… don’t you go out to eat?” She had no appetite just looking at it. 

Xie Yan looked up at her, his expression unchanged, “What’s the matter?”

His tone was ice-cold. Su Shen was taken aback, but she still went forward and raised the script in her hand, “Well, there’s a kiss scene in the afternoon… Can you tell the Director to use positioning?”

As her words fell, the latter looked up and said calmly, “No.” 

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Sending Chicken Soup

Just a scrape of the knee, it shouldn’t leave a scar, right?

Just as Su Shen wanted to say something, she saw Xie Yan stand up. Momentarily, she didn’t know what to say.

The others tacitly continued doing whatever they were doing, but they felt that they might have discovered something extraordinary. 

“Yep, yep, there will be a scar! Scars absolutely mustn’t be left on girls, else it’ll be ugly!” Zhao Tong hurriedly added.

Trying to remain indifferent, Su Shen looked at Xie Yan and pointed at the Director, “I’m going to go over the script with the Director.”  

After saying that, she quickly walked towards the Director before he could react.

Su Shen actually didn’t know what to do. Unlike the past, she didn’t want to enter into a relationship at such a young age, but Xie Yan didn’t explicitly say that he liked her, so she couldn’t refuse. However, they were filming here everyday and were certain to cross paths regularly, let alone hide from him every time. 

Looking at her receding figure, Zhao Tong sighed inwardly. He didn’t understand why Su Shen was so stupid. Wasn’t their Yan ge obvious enough?

Or, was this actually a refusal in disguise?

The next few scenes went pretty well, and they finally finished filming before dark.

After returning to the hotel, Su Shen asked Xiao Zhou to buy a takeout for her. Then, she turned on her laptop to look at the script that Liu jie sent her.

There was a small production school life film that was not bad, and the plot was not too melodramatic either. Although it was not a big production, Su Shen felt that it was okay to start small first, since a big production wouldn’t turn to her anyways. 

There was also a crime drama invested by Starlight Entertainment. It was mainly centered around the male lead, and it was reported that they had already invited Li Hao to play as the male lead. The remaining roles would be allocated to actors and actresses from the company. The dramas produced by their company were generally not too bad, and Su Shen was also rather interested in this kind of drama. 

At the same time, today was the official announcement of the modern drama. They also released the posters for each character. The topic had firmly occupied the top three spots of Hot Search, and the comments below were fiercely fighting with one another.

Netizen A: As soon as she debuted, she played as a female lead. She acted with a best actor and best actress for her first film. Later, she even replaced Mu Yao as the female lead for Green Blood Sword. Now, Xie Yan’s TV series debut is even given to her. Is Miss Su’s next production going to be a Hollywood blockbuster?

Netizen B: Even Yang Zhi was replaced, she’s deserving of being the“Empress Snatcher”!

Netizen C: It’s the first I’ve seen a drama where the supporting female lead is more famous than the female lead. Does Miss Su want to use her poor acting to make Li Xue a hit? 

Netizen D: Just be jealous, you antis. Our Su Su is still the female lead, and her beauty can KO a plastic surgery face in a second! 

Netizen E: OMG! My hubby’s actually filming an idol drama. I’m a little scared; there must absolutely be no kiss scenes! 

Netizen F: Am I the only one who’s looking a little forward to it? Although Su Shen’s acting cannot be commented on, her beauty needs no words and her long legs would be all over the screen. [joy]

Netizen G: Su Shen’s simply a winner in life! With a good family, good looks, good figure, and interactions with so many handsome men, she must’ve saved the galaxy in her previous life. [joy]

Netizen H: AHHHHH! My hubby’s so handsome, I want to lick the screen!

Su Shen had long been immune to these comments. She was indeed blocking the way of too many people, and those people would certainly not let her film in peace.

Celebrities were bright on the surface, but who knew how ugly their hearts were behind the scenes. For example, Qu Wen. She didn’t know whether these actors were handsome or not, it was fine as long as they were of good character. Those that entered this industry were either due to interest or for the money. The money she had earned, she had to share half of it with the company after tax was deducted. It couldn’t be helped, the contract stated so, unless she opened her own studio. But it was a little far away for the time being. 

She sent a message to Liu jie, telling her that the two scripts were acceptable, and then she went to take a shower and went to bed.

The second day of filming was to film the last part of the script. It just so happened that the set of that scene was set up, so they naturally had to film it beforehand. However, this scene made Su Shen a little embarrassed. 

“Su Shen, can you wear 10 cm high heels?” The stylist asked from the shoe rack.

Su Shen sat in front of the vanity, allowing the makeup artist to do her makeup and responded, “Yes.”

Because this scene needed her to be taller…

“Su jie, your phone is ringing.” Just at this moment, Xiao Zhou suddenly took her phone out from her bag. 

Su Shen took it and saw that it was her mom!

As soon as the call connected, Mama Su’s high pitched voice transmitted through, “Shen Shen, are you at Mashi street in the Nanyun district?”

Hearing this, Su Shen immediately raised her hand to indicate to the makeup artist to pause, and she couldn’t help but curiously put her phone to her ear, “Yeah, what’s wrong?”

“Oh, it’s gotten colder now. I made some black chicken soup for you to replenish your blood vitality. I’ll be there at noon. Can outsiders enter the set?”

Su Shen: “……”

Her own condo was a little far from here, but it was very close to where her parents live. It would take no more than 20 minutes to get here without traffic. However, Su Shen didn’t expect that her mom would suddenly bring her soup.

Just when she was about to refuse, Mama Su said solemnly, “I’m just coming to have a look!”

Su Shen: “……”

This was actually her mom’s real purpose, wasn’t it?

“Okay, call me when you arrive then. There are security guards on set, so you won’t be able to come in.” She sighed as if in compromise. Fortunately, it wasn’t chaotic on set, else she absolutely wouldn’t dare to let her mom come. 

Hearing that, Mama Su hung up the phone with satisfaction. Su Shen then asked the makeup artist to continue. 

Her mom must’ve seen the comments online recently. She was often away from home, and it was rare that filming this time was so close to home, so her mom must’ve wanted to come and see.

After getting her makeup done, she went to go over the script with the Director. This was a scene where the male and female leads were already dating. The male lead sent the female lead home, and the female lead would complain about how he has to go on a mission again. A little reluctant, she threw a tantrum for a bit.

“Su Shen, don’t forget that the longshot will pan from the left side of your face to the right side. Remember to find the camera.” The Director sat in front of the monitor and pointed to show her a direction. 

Su Shen nodded, but she was a little embarrassed to read the script. She didn’t feel it before, but now, she just felt it was too embarrassing. It would be fine if it was someone else, but of all people, the other party was Xie Yan.

“It’s almost time for you to get into position.” The Director said and then asked the cinematographer to sweep the camera over.  

Hearing this, Su Shen took a deep breath and tried her best to just treat it as acting. Then, she walked over to the small path of greenery in the gated community and got into position.

Not long after, Xie Yan also came over with the female lead’s small bag in hand, which looked particularly outlandish. 

“Quick, quick, hold hands!” The Director shouted into the loudspeaker.

Su Shen just felt very embarrassed, and when her hand by her side was suddenly grasped by a big hand, she only felt even more embarrassed.  

“Are you hot?” Xie Yan turned toward her and saw beads of sweat on her forehead.

“Ah?” Su Shen turned toward him and found that he was staring at her, so she softly smiled, “Just a little nervous.”

Seeing that her ear was red, Xie Yan couldn’t help smiling and whispered into her ear, “It’s just acting.”

Everyone else: “……”

To say there was nothing fishy going on between the two of them, they would not believe it even if they were beaten to death!

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At that, Su Shen took a pen and made a note on the script while Xie Yan, who was beside her, looked at her quietly. 

She wore an orange lip gloss today, and it looked super glossy.

The rest of the crew couldn’t help but look over there covertly, only to see the two of them being super close to each other. Their film emperor was staring at her unwaveringly.

Su Shen suddenly looked up as if she remembered something, only to find Xie Yan was looking at her. When their eyes met, she couldn’t help but smile, “I remember that Xie laoshi had me go over the script with my assistant the first time around. I had thought you didn’t like to go over the script with other people.”

Xie Yan: “……”

Why doesn’t he remember?

Seeing that his expression remained the same, Su Shen thought she must’ve gone too far with her joke and immediately apologized, “Apologies, I didn’t mean anything.”

As she said that, she pointed to another part of the script and said, “When the male lead rescues the female lead, does he push her aside?”

Xie Yan: “No.”

“En?” Su Shen looked up curiously.

“I will cover you.” Xie Yan looked at her meaningfully.

Hearing this, Su Shen just nodded, and after asking something else, the Director said that filming was about to begin.

For this scene, it was just blocking* and there were no lines. But they had to NG because a few extras made a mistake, but it was much better later.

blocking – in filmmaking, it refers to where actors stand on a set and how they move around over the course of filming, or as some would say choreography

When it was time to film the male lead making his first appearance, Xie Yan was already gone. Later, he and a group of policemen would break through the window. Naturally, the glass was a prop. It looked as if it was real, but it wouldn’t actually injure anymore.

When it was almost time, the Director shouted “Action!” 

“AH! Don’t kill me!”

In the spacious clothing store, the extras crouched in the corner and screamed desperately. Su Shen was amongst them. However, she was the female lead and could not panic like the others, but calmly looked for a way to save herself.

“WHAT ARE Y’ALL SCREAMING FOR? IF Y’ALL CONTINUE, I’LL SHOOT YOU!” One of the gangsters raised his gun fiercely and shot at the floor with a “BANG.”

Those extras were even more afraid, but they didn’t dare to scream again. They just crouched there trembling.

Su Shen was also amongst the crowd. She seemed to have noticed something outside the window, but before she could take a closer look, that gangster shouted “f**k.” Before he could raise his gun, he was shot in the arm all of a sudden.

Just at this moment, a man with a rope smashed through the window, and the prop glass shattered to the floor. The hand-cranked camera was aimed straight at him, and the people behind immediately followed in. Several other gangsters were panicking and were escaping, while shooting toward the window.  

The whole store was instantly full of gunshots. The extras fled in disarray, and it was simply a frenzy. Knowing that they were outnumbered, several gangsters took a few hostages while they were escaping.

“AHH! SAVE ME!”

In the midst of the loud screaming from the extras being taken hostage, Su Shen leaned against the wall in a panic and was about to escape when an extra bumped into her, causing her to stumble and come face-to-face with a dark muzzle pointing at her. 

Just at this moment, the camera swept over. For only a second, Su Shen stopped breathing, and her mouth slightly parted, while her pupils dilated. With the sound of a gunshot, she was instantly thrown to the floor!

It was not as painful as she had expected. The Director said that she could use a stunt double as there were no protective measures, and thus, she could easily hit her head. However, Su Shen refused as she wanted to act out as much of her role as possible. 

When she met that pair of pitch-dark eyes, she saw her own reflection in Xie Yan’s eyes and the back of her head seemed to be held by him, and that’s why she didn’t feel as much pain as expected.

Director: “Cut!”

“Yan ge, are you okay?!” Zhao Tong immediately circled them.

The others also gathered around, afraid that something had happened to him. After all, the action scene just now was quite hefty. After Su Shen got up, she was pushed aside unintentionally. She felt the back of her head and did not say anything. She walked to the side and allowed the makeup artist to retouch her makeup.  

Su Shen felt rather thirsty and thus asked Xiao Zhou to bring her a bottle of water. 

After touching up on her makeup, the makeup artist then helped straighten the creases on Su Shen’s clothes. Just at this moment, Xie Yan came over. Seeing him, the makeup artist immediately walked away. They all have eyes, so what was there to not understand. 

“Are you alright?” Xie Yan glanced at her from top to bottom.

Su Shen rubbed her wrist and shook her head while leaning against the wall, “I’m fine, your hand…”

Just now, her head hit his head; from so high, it must’ve hurt.

“I’m fine.” Xie Yan seemed to have seen something and suddenly stared at her knee, “You’re injured.”

There was indeed a scrape on her fair and smooth knee, which appeared out of sorts with the rest of the surrounding fair skin. Su Shen looked down and smiled nonchalantly, “I’m fine.” 

“How is that fine? I got a band-aid right here!” Just at this moment, Zhao Tong came over with a small medical box in his arms smiling.  

Just as Su Shen was about to say something, she saw Xie Yan take a band-aid and suddenly crouched down in front of her. Facing the furtive gazes of everyone on set, she didn’t dare to move.

The medical box in Zhao Tong’s arms almost fell.

After tearing off the sticker, Xie Yan put the band-aid on her wound and said earnestly, “Small wounds would leave a scar if they are not treated properly.” 

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Su Shen was taken aback and then withdrew her arm from his grasp and smiled, “I’m going to go change my clothes.”

Seeing that Xie Yan didn’t say anything, Su Shen then turned around and walked to her dressing room. Liu jie fought for her, and thus, her clothes and cosmetics were of better quality. There were also some planted by advertisers. Generally, the clothes were sent by the advertisers, and they were well-known domestic brands. There were two rows of clothes, at least 40 or 50 sets. She could practically wear one each day. It couldn’t be helped, the production team was rich.

The stylist selected a blue chiffon top and a pair of white high-waisted relaxed wide-legged cropped trousers for her. Her makeup was rather light, and her hair was tied into a loose bun. The makeup for modern times was much simpler. Since she had nice skin, she didn’t need too much foundation and was done in about half an hour. 

“Su jie, your legs are so long.” Xiao Zhou looked at her straight and slender legs with admiration.

“Yeah, thanks to Xie Yan for being tall enough, otherwise, you wouldn’t even be able to wear high heels.” The stylist laughed while choosing a 5 cm thick pinkish heel for her.

When filming, there were some actors who weren’t tall enough or there were some actresses who were too tall, so actresses would wear flats when they were in the same frame or have a step stool for the actors. Su Shen was 167 cm and would be around 170 cm when she wore high heels. There was also the addition of hairstyle depending on if it’s a historical production. That’s why she had to wear flats when she filmed with Luo Han before. However, since Xie Yan was tall enough, she would appear too short without high heels. 

“Just focus on filming, I’m going to go first. Li Xiao’s participating in a singing show recently, so I won’t come over for a bit. Call me if you need anything.” Liu jie looked at her watch.

After changing her shoes, Su Shen adjusted her hair in front of the mirror and said, “En.”

Seeing this, Liu jie took her bag and walked out of the dressing room. When several women sat together, it was liable to chat about beauty upkeep. As they chatted and chatted, they came to the topic of losing weight. Su Shen liked to listen to those makeup artists discuss whether a certain female artist had plastic surgery or not. There were many procedures able to be done. As she listened, time quickly passed. 

It wasn’t until a staff member said that it was almost her turn that Su Shen came to her senses. She remembered that she seemed to have forgotten to go over the script with Xie Yan. 

When she came to set with her script, the Director had just finished filming the individual parts of each character. It was almost time for her, the cameraman, and the owner of the beauty salon that they had just interviewed to leave the shopping mall when several gangsters rushed in. The production team had really unloaded their capital. It was said that they had even hired a policeman to coach some professional moves.

“Su Shen, you will start walking with your colleague from the door of that store later. Try your best to grasp the intonation of your lines. When you guys are about to turn the corner, someone will rush in. It will basically be one take. Understand?” The Director pointed at the shopping mall in the distance. 

Hearing this, Su Shen naturally nodded.

When everything was almost ready, Su Shen stood at the position that the Director said. When he said “action,” she started to walk from that position, but the camera panned over from another direction. 

“Xiao Jiang, are you hungry? How about we go there and eat something first?” Her colleague in the back asked her with a camera in hand. 

Su Shen walked in front, and just at this moment, the camera panned over. She smiled somewhat helplessly, “Let’s send the materials back to the news station first. If it’s too late, Director Wang will scold us again.”

Hearing this, the male colleague in the back could only sigh, “We work to death everyday, and we don’t even get a pay increase. I want to resign already.”

There were extras coming and going in the surroundings. After all, it was a shopping mall, so it had to appear as if there were a lot of people. When Su Shen heard that, she scratched her head in distress, “If I resign, my mom will beat me to death!”

“Haha, you still…”

“AH!”

Following the screams of the extras, several gangsters with guns suddenly rushed into the scene. Su Shen’s eyes widened and froze in place. Just at this moment, the Director also shouted “cut.”   

The next scene would be when she was driven into a clothing store by the gangsters to be a hostage. The makeup artist came over and retouched her lip gloss. The Director was over there discussing the script with several stuntmen who played as the gangsters.

Over there, Su Shen saw Xie Yan who was chatting with the policeman. He had already changed into his police clothes, but Su Shen recognized him at first glance. Remembering that she had just bailed on him, she walked toward him with her script in hand. 

“Yan ge!” Zhao Tong nudged Xie Yan’s arm and gave him a meaningful look over there.

Xie Yan turned around, only to see Su Shen walking straight towards him with her script in hand. Perhaps because she was wearing high waisted cropped pants, it made her legs appear to be slender and straight, which immediately attracted the attention of many extras.

He took off his cap, handed his prop gun to Zhao Tong, and then walked towards her with his script in hand.

“Apologies, it slipped my mind. You still have time, do you want to go over the scene?” Su Shen raised the script in her hand.

Later, the male lead would break through the window and have some eye contact with the female lead. Of course, there would also be some action. It was Su Shen’s first time filming such a scene, so she was a little afraid of not understanding it properly. 

Seeing this, Xie Yan took the script in her hand and brought her to sit down on the two stools by the wall. 

“After I come in, you’re running away with the rest of the extras, but you must show your face, otherwise the camera won’t be able to focus on you.” Xie Yan held her script and pointed to a certain place, “Here, when the gangsters come in and a gun is aimed at you, you only have one second of the scene. How do you think you should appear?” 

When their eyes met, Su Shen blinked and read the script carefully while sitting on the small stool, “I thought it was fright, just like this.”

As she said that, she showed an expression that she thought was of shock and fear.

Xie Yan stared at her quietly for a few seconds before he said, “No, it’s panic.”

“Panic?”

Su Shen looked down and mulled over the script, but still did not agree with him, “It’s already panicking enough to be taken hostage. If I were to panic again at that time, it wouldn’t add more to the tension.”  

“Your first reaction to be pointed at by a gun is shock?” Xie Yan asked.

Hearing this, Su Shen didn’t refute any further. She was so absorbed in reading the script that she ignored reality. It was a matter of life or death. A person’s first reaction would certainly be panic and fear, and the expression of shock seemed too dull and did not reflect a more emotional feeling.  

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